“Wonder if I just wasn’t that anymore?” I remember one of my yoga teachers sharing this thought during my first teacher training. When she’s spiraling in sadness or frustration about some identity or circumstance, she asks herself, wonder if I just wasn’t that anymore. And … Continue reading The Shift

Everyone knows when they are lonely. But do we know, do we allow ourselves to feel when we are connected? I’ve developed all the automatic loneliness-implying labels to define myself “I’m single”, “I live alone”, “I work alone”, “I moved to the least populated state … Continue reading Connection

I’ve just been in my second chapter of yoga teacher training and gleaning this sense of how much I yearn to “finish” things in my life. Like finishing or learning the lesson would somehow bring conclusion to this era of transformation I’ve been in. Transformation … Continue reading Let Us Not Miss The Point

Earlier this month some friends invited me to join them on a huge hike, one that would be my hugest ever. All the reasons to say no immediately flooded my mind– I’ve been nursing an ankle/knee thing all summer, my neck/back are always a problem, … Continue reading Do It Anyway

If we never screwed up, we’d never get to be one of the best things a person can be– resilient. We just don’t gain much at all by balancing on a rock in the middle of the lake and never falling in. Sure we might … Continue reading Resiliency

Four Elements Series: Pt. 4 We are water, we flow and flow. Of course I’ve always known the first piece to be true– as so much of this planet and our very bodies are composed of water. But the second part has come to both … Continue reading Water

Four Elements Series: Pt. 3 The snow has melted faster than anyone would have imagined– in days and rainstorms rather than in months and dozens of degrees. Now the earth is brown, and maybe we wish it wasn’t. Maybe we’d rather lust wildly for summer, … Continue reading Earth

Four Elements Series: Pt. 2 It was the air that first drew me to California. After a sweat lodge ceremony on my yoga retreat to Mexico, we opened the window and door and watched all the smoke exit to the West. I need to go … Continue reading Air

Four Elements Series: Pt. 1 Is there anything we can’t learn from fire? It’s all we need to master in one constantly evolving state. And Wyoming has provided me my window of study: my tiny wood burning stove. For weeks now all I’ve wanted is … Continue reading Fire

My bedroom window faces the ski resort, and in the middle of the night I can see tiny lights migrating across the mountain– machines grooming the ski runs. It has the affect on me of making me feel not alone. Even in Wyoming, even in … Continue reading A Light in the Distance